When one believe so, there are much more people suffering the same as he is, even worse; when the one deems that it's the judgment day, however, as long as he's still alive, everything's still running step by step.
There must be some sacrifice for all the mistakes, even victims, but all costs will get paid one day as long as the one burried them in mind from then on.
So, time to turn over a new leaf, when there's a comparison, nothing is eligible to be the "worst", when one thinks he has reached the bottom, there's more rooms underground, when people see "NOTHING", it doesn't mean they don't exist. So why not look upward, it might take time, let's say, a long time, but as long as the one still have hopes and dreams innermost, everything will go forward gradually....
Our limited lives shouldn't be worn away in endless sighs and regrets. Whatever one did before, who cares? People care more about what he or she's doing and whatever will be done later...
Never let hopes and dreams slip away...^^
(p.s. I am murmuring to myself too)