Now that you have deleted all your messages from that stread, I am even more convinced that my diagnose is right: you are clinically depressed.
Please go and make an appointment with a family doctor. Depression is a serious condition that can be greatly improved with the right midication.
There's nothing characterly wrong or shameful about depression: most researchers now believe it's a brain chemical imbalance. But you must seek medical attention, this condition can significantly reduce your quality of life, and in the worst case, can lead to suicide.
Please go and make an appointment with a family doctor. Depression is a serious condition that can be greatly improved with the right midication.
There's nothing characterly wrong or shameful about depression: most researchers now believe it's a brain chemical imbalance. But you must seek medical attention, this condition can significantly reduce your quality of life, and in the worst case, can lead to suicide.