喜欢的人却难以接受自己。。。。。。。。。好不容易以为找到爱情了。。。。可是,还是自己想错了。
现实真的很残酷。。。。。。。。。。。
很残酷。。。。。。。。。。。
最近新来的一个顶替他的职位的人,令我觉得我have been maltreated, 大概是自作多情了....
This new guy...he is always smiling at me, even dance a little in front of me(just to make me happy?) He even apologized to me after I yell at him for no good reason.
In comparison, I realized he didn't treat me well at all. There were a few times he treated me so cruelly, kind of like treating a crap. then later, he treated me pretty nice and then I started making excuses for him and forgave him.
and then, there is this Korean guy who said he will quit if I quit, if I don't find another job, he will stay here forever.... and he said will tell me the reason he is staying here despite the fact he doesn't need this job after we quit. (what else the reason could be?)
These 2 guys are so nice to me.....but sadly I don't have that kind of feeling for them.
and this guy who gives me headaches and heartaches....I used to think maybe he likes me and I like him......now, I don't think he likes me and I don't think I will like a guy who does not treat me the ways I should be treated. and now, he is been promoted to a slightly better position, but he still drop by every day, and seeing him is torturous to me.
God, I need to find another job asap...
命运真是很悲哀。。。折腾的。。。最后还是什么也没有。