I planned to have a kid from 4 years ago. I could not do it at that time as I knew for sure that my kid would not be blessed with a happy life - I was jobless and did not even have a Canadian degree.
So I said to my "baby": wait, your mom will prepare herself before you come." Therefore I went back to school. However, after graduation, I found job market was still difficult. And, at this point, it seems that my age would not allow me to wait.
Dear friends, thank you for all your comments. Whatever decision I make, it should work for my future kid's best interest. And whatever decision I make, it should make me happy as well.
Thank you again.