December 24, 2011, Saturday
It was almost a year ago when I wrote something, and, ahah! again, I am writing!
I would not write if there were nothing special. My days haven't been too special since I met these two asians last time. But that is alright. I am happy the way life is. No complaints.
Today is Christmas Eve. This time of the year is perhaps the only time of the year that I would get a bit sentimental, ... I guess this is the word. Coz people are happy. They are too happy. They are having parties. Nice meals on the table. Christmas trees, and lights, and friends, and family, and fireplace… I still have to stay on the street, talking shit with the drunks, with the dopeheads, with the hookers, and with all sorts of crazy people. Well, it is not that bad. But out of nowhere, I do feel a bit of losing myself. Today is one of those days.
After lunch at the Salvation Army place, I wandered a bit around the street and spent my allowance on a big cake. We did get an extra ten bucks of allowance for Christmas, thanks to our government., and thanks for the cake.
Then when I was sitting on the street, watching these happy people carrying bags of gifts, of flowers, of food, I saw them walking fast perhaps to get home for their parties or family gatherings, I started feeling kinda low. I sort of wondered what they would eat at home, and how they they would hang out on a Christmas Eve.
Not on the street. That I know for sure.
I haven't had anything nice for ages. We do have a small party in the residence to celebrate Christmas every year, and the meal is somewhat better than what we got on an average day, but that is about it. The main thing about the party is for a church guy to come talking God. How great he is and how nice he is and how powerful he is. I heard the shit too many times, and if it were true, why do you have to keep saying it?
Anyways, another year is over, but next year is still gonna be the same. At least for me.
I sat down on my usual spot eating my cake, trying to forget the bad feelings.
Then, fun thing happened.
(to be continued ...)